So there it is out there for everyone to see in the sky,
I stand there in gravel so sharp, pulling my sweater over my head,
my feet are leaking drops of blood as I walk down the path ahead.
Is this the only moment that will capture my eyes,
for yet they have been blind in life so far.
How faint, and far away you feel, the rain falls gently,
I rake my fingers through the only strands of hair on my almost bald head.
I see you standing there, I could smell you, I forgot everything around me even my kids.
I can see how there would be no mourning there, I hope I don’t forget them ever.
Was my life a whole mess, or was I just caught up in the mess my whole life?
How powerful that question breathes out of me into the mist that floats about with denial.
Will you hold my hand this last time, will I awake my final waking up next to you?
Will there be music, that moves me as profound as it does a passionate musician?
I want to hear those fiddles, hey hey hey -Devil Went down to Georgia.
Will there be light and colors as vivid for a person who can see for the first time?
Will there be all different kinds of foods only fit for a King and all his Knights ?
Will there be any time I shall I ever feel any pain or suffering after this?
Can you guaranteed to me a warranty that would outlast your lifetime?
I find myself laying in my bed looking up at the ceiling fan and getting dizzy,
I raise my arms into the air, blow out a breath of air and hum my favorite tune.
I sweat mostly at night, the pain sits in, sending me into a spiral.
My life will have to adjust, this trash can next to me is not for looks.
I glance over at my white wooden framed ole time windows to my left,
as they are raised to the top the curtains blow around beautifully and dance for me.
The breeze skates across the room, I feel at ease and inside my heart, the peace.
The room dims out with a bright life fading, awakening and tranquility.
Tasha Geller-Hollingshead ©copyright October 29, 2016