This is more of an observation and realization blog. A moment I can take just for myself. Something that’s all mine. You see I like my individuality and uniqueness. I don’t think it’s a great idea for anybody to be trapped in those heavy bulky boxes. You know those kinds of boxes right? The kind that people put you in, tape you all up, and slap a label top. I do not like labels. Labels are inappropriate to introduce into what should be a trusting relationship.
I’ve been meditating for a few weeks now. Something I ask the universe for every time is to get rid of anything negative or things that are holding me back from reaching my potential. Little did I know I would be watching those close to my heart start dropping like flies. Friends that I kept very close to my heart, and some acquaintances disguised as friendships. Normally, I’d be really upset about this and think that I’ve done something wrong. I would try to fix it. I no longer will allow myself to feel like I have to save every relationship. If the relationship falls apart, chances are it’s all part of the big unknown plan fate has in store for us. Whatever the case may be, I know that it’s bigger than me and that I am going to be ok eventually. I’m not going to try and understand it anymore. I don’t have to question everything anymore. I am good with just learning how to let go. I am letting go of any of that control that I tried so hard to hang on to for so long. I’m letting go of anyone and everything thats not meant for me. I will show gratitude about this and in every situation that comes about or is leaving my life will be accepted. I give thanks to all the lessons that were learned and all the knowledge that I’ve gained. I give thanks to the love that I once felt and the love I shared with those that meant something special to me at some point in our friendships. Memories will not be muddy, or labeled. They will just be… memories.
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